TITLE : Just Rainbow Who Knows What I’m Feeling For U
AUTHOR : Tri Dian Laksmi Dewi
CAST :
-Kwon Ji Yong
-Kwon Seo Jeung
GENRE : Romance
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Ji Yong POV
I leaned back a moment after a weary search for Seo Jeung’s birth file. I think it's already an hour I locked myself in my mom’s room just only to find the file.
“ Oppa , where are u ? I’m here. ” That’s Seo Jeung ! She’s already back , I can’t let her know it. I cleared up the room and directly met her.
“Yeah ! I’m here , are u already back huh ? ” I asked her.
“Of course ! but why u just leave me alone at school huh ? ” she asked while walking closer to me.
“ Sorry , im so tired after a basketball match. ”
“ No matter how busy you are , you'll wait for me at school. ” her face looked sullen. I feel very guilty , but it’s impossible to tell the truth.
“ I’m so sorry dear , are u angry with me ? ” I asked her.
“ Nope , what are u doing now ? ” she asked while looking at me who still was standing in front of the mom’s room.
“ Oh me ? uhm .. have u eaten ? ”
“ Not yet , is there any food ? ” I saw she was caressing her stomach.
“ No , are u hungry ? what if we went out to buy some food ? ”
“ Let’s go ! I’m so hungry. ”
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Ji Yong POV
If yesterday I didn’t hear this problem from my mom , Maybe I wouldn’t be nervous like this. My heart’s frantic after hearing that Seo Jeung isn’t my biological sister. Next day I was immediately dismantle all of the contents of the mom’s room for finding Seo Jeung’s adoption file from the orphanage. I found and folded it up to be a very small file and I slipped behind a framed picture of me with Seo Jeung displayed in a small table near my bed. I’m Kwon Ji Yong who was only 2 years older than Seo Jeung. I loved her more than anything I have. I always protect her. For people who don’t know abou our siblings , would regard us as lovers. Actually it’s already jammed for a long time. Judging from our faces both very different. Seo Jeung didn’t have the same look with mom and dad. Maybe because it's basically she’s not my biological sister and I was loving her too much ? too much to express my love to her ? Before I knew this truth , I really love her and somehow heard about it I become sad mingled happily. I feel sad when Seo Jeung know that she’s not a biological child. And I feel happy if I could love her without being limited by the siblings. I love her , really love her. Somehow I could have feelings like this with my sister. And now I'm not afraid to express my love. But is this absurd when Seo Jeung still think we are blood relatives ?
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Seo Jeung is a beautiful girl. But it’s also undeniable beauty and good fortune that has a brother like Kwon Ji Yong whose smart and handsome not always provide happiness for Seo Jeung. Seo Jeung despised class of the incoming class of girls in a matter of The It Girls at her school to accommodate students who are upper class students. In class she sat with Soon Young , a bestfriend who always accompanied her. Seo Jeung known as a weak girl because she was suffering from leukemia at any time could abort her hair strand by strand. When they get a math lesson , Seo Jeung’s class instructed to form groups. Was predictable, no one took Seo Jeung and Soon Young.
“ Soo Ra~ah , could we join to your math group ? ” Soon Young asked while she approached her.
“ I don’t want to group with you guys. ” Soo Ra replied indifference.
“ Soo Ra , please .. We don’t have a group. ” Seo Jeung asked again.
“ I don’t like one group with a spoiled girl like you ! which can only hide behind Kwon Ji Yong ! why are you so annoying huh ?! ” Soo Ra snapped. Seo Jeung could only look down and cries were shouted at like that.
“ Huh , just shouted at like that's all you crying. The basis of weak girl ! no wonder you only have one friend. Who is willing to have friends like you huh ?! ” Soo Ra continues to insult Seo Jeung.
“ Who said Seo Jeung’s not have any friends?” Ji Yong suddenly enters their classroom and tried to defend his sister.
“ Opp .. oppa ...” Soo Ra could only bite her lower lip when she saw a man who had long she liked to come.
“ Why are you treating my sister like that ? ” Ji Yong snapped to Soo Ra.
“ I'm so sorry oppa , I'm just kidding. ”
“ You told that’s joke ? You insult my sister until she cried and you said it was just a joke ? ” Soo Ra kept her head down and not dare look at the eyes Jong WoJi Yong’s eyes on being glared at her.
“ Ji Yong oppa , I'll take Seo Jeung out of the class. ” Soon Young said whose not bear to see her friend who was still crying.
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After Seo Jeung and Soon Young out of class , Ji Yong cornered Soo Ra to closer the locker.
“ Actually , what do you want ? Whether my sister had something wrong with you? till you hate her so ?
“ I love you oppa ! I don’t like any girls so close to you , I'm jealous oppa ! ”
“ Do you think you're my girlfriend huh ? Seo Jeung is my sister and it’s fair if I'm so close to her. ”
“ Oppa ! Your relationship isn’t fair. You ever had a relationship with a girl who is more beautiful than Seo Jeung but your behavior is very different ! All students in schools aren’t blind oppa ! we can distinguish love and affection to your sister who exceed it ! ” Ji Yong just be stunned and unable to say anything else. Soo Ra said the truth.
“ So what do you want me to do ? I will grant a petition as long as you stop to hurting Seo Jeung.”
“ Well I want you to be my boyfriend right now. ”
“ What ? ”
“ Then , I'll be friendly with Seo Jeung, I’ll be her best friend, so she won’t be sad, do you agree with me ? ”
“ Well if that's you want , but you must remember I do this all just for the sake of Seo Jeung. ”
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Next day, Soo Ra immediately changed drastically. She approached Seo Jeung and Soon Young. They also often go together. Seo Jeung who are innocent don’t realize that Soo Ra pretend only nice to her. They instantly became best friends. Already 2 weeks they were always together. Not the slightest suspicion arises in the minds of Seo Jeung to Soo Ra. This afternoon Soo Ra promised to go to Seo Jeung’s house. Though she only intends to meet with Ji Yong. Seo Jeung just an excuse.
“ Soo Ra ~ ah ” Seo Jeung said while opened the door of her house and found Soo Ra was smiling at her.
“ Yeah , I keep my promise isn’t it ? I come to your house. ”
“ Come in ! ” They both sat in the living room.
“ Where’s Ji Yong oppa ? ” asked Soo Ra.
“ Why do you ask Ji Yong oppa ? you're here because you wanna meet me right ? rarely have a friend who visited the house and talked with me , I hope you come here not to meet with Ji Yong oppa. ” said Seo Jeung , whose face became gloomy. Instantly Soo ra’s eyes imply hatred for Seo Jeung. But Soo Ra still clever cover up his charade.
“ No , I'm here because you are my friend, I could borrow your toilet ? I wanna pee.
“ Ah yeah , go ahead. ” Seo jeung said. Soo Ra explore every corner of the Seo Jeung’s home , She kept looking for Ji Yong
until she finally turned to the room thst the door slightly open. She also stepped into the room. After seeing the man’s shirt and pants scattered on the bed , she was convinced if it’s a Ji Yong’s Room. She smiled satisfaction and looking for Ji Yong. Her eyes were fixed on the frame image displayed on a small table near the bed. Soo Ra took a frame , there are photos of Ji Yong and Seo Jeung was smiling together.
“ Somehow I don’t like to see this picture , although you both a siblings. ” her words halted when folded paper fell from the frame.
“ What's this? ” she asked to herself as she took the folded paper. Slowly she opened the paper until she read the entire contents.
“ What ?! So they're not blood relatives. ”
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“ Soo Ra ~ ah , why are you so long in the toilet ? ” Soo Ra folded the paper quickly before it’s known by Seo Jeung and Ji Yong.
“ Yeah , I'm done. ” Soo Ra said as she walked back to the living room.
“ Soo Ra , let’s go out ! ” Seo Jeung said to Soo Ra when she already seated at her side.
“ I don’t wanna go out with you ! ” Soo Ra back to be a cynical and arrogant person.\
“ Why ? I wanna go out with you.”
“ You just go out with Soon Young ! Why do u have to take me ? Hey , I’m not your babysitter who must with you everywhere ! ” Soo Ra said with curt tone.
“ Soo Ra~ah , why do you like this ? You know that Soon Young was busy with her lessons , I rarely get out with her. ”
“ You just look for another friend! and have you know I'm here just to see Ji Yong oppa ! nothing more than that ! do you know why I wanna be friends with you huh ? Cause I wanna approach your brother ! are you satisfied with my answer ? ” Soo Ra snapped Seo Jeug and left her.
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Since morning Ji Yong was in an orphanage where his parents adopted Seo Jeung. He is looking for Seo Jeung’s birth. But he didn’t find it , having tired of searching , he decided to come home. At home , he was shocked by Seo Jeung which lay limp on the floor of the living room with a pale face. Ji Yong was panic and he lifted Seo Jeung into the car headed to the hospital.
Seo Jeung disease is already severe , she was sentenced by the hospital. If she thought about the complex , she will dizzy and fainted. Her hair also was falling out. Ji Yong can only pray the best for his sister. All the time he spent to crying in the corridor of the hospital because Seo Jeung hasn’t been recovered. Ji Yong feel like he was losing his life if see Seo Jeung just can only be lying limp in a hospital bed. Finally Ji Yong had to know if this is all caused by Soo Ra. Ji Yong was angry to Soo Ra. Soo Ra said to Ji Yong if she couldn’t allow him to stay close to the girl who isn’t his biological sister. Soo Ra fear if Ji Yong falling in love with Seo Jeung cause they’re not blood relatives.
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Two days later , Seo Jeung already quite recovered but her body was still weak so it should be assisted with a wheelchair. Her head was bandaged because it has a lot of hair loss. Her face was wan and pale , her lips turned white but Ji Yong still love Seo Jeung. Every day, Ji Yong came to the hospital. He sings, dances and many other things that he did for the sake of seeing Seo Jeung smiling even in a fragile body. Ji Yong kept awake every night to accompany Seo Jeung. His love is so great to beat all sense of weariness to keep Seo Jeung day by day.
“ Oppa , go home. I know you're tired of keeping me continually. ” Seo Jeung said who are being fed by Ji Yong.
“ I'm not tired , I'm happy to take care of you Seo Jeung ~ ah. ”
“ But you ....” Ji Yong immediately put his finger on the Seo Jeung’s lips.
“ Come on , don’t worry about me. The most important thing for me right now is you have to recover. ”
“ Oppa , my life too short. I couldn’t possibly recover. ” Seo Jeung replied resignedly.
“ Every effort will I do for you to recover ! Please don’t talk like that anymore. ” he said with tears. He didn’t like if Seo
Jeung don’t have the spirit to live like that. He loved her so much
Suddenly rain was falling from the sky. Ji Yong was smiling. He knew very well that Seo Jeung really like the rainbow.
‘ Maybe by looking at the rainbow she have a spirit to live ’ Ji Yong thinker deep
“ Seo Jeung~ah , look at the sky ! It’s raining , soon you could see the rainbow. ” Ji Yong said as he gently stroked Seo Jeung’s cheek with the back of his index finger.
“ Yeah oppa , you'll have to come with me to see the rainbow. This might be the last time I could see the rainbow together with you.. ” Seo Jeung said which gives a smile to her brother.
“ Don’t you say like that again..please. I don’t wanna lose you Seo Jeung ~ ah. ” Ji Yong clutching Seo Jeung’s hands. Ji Yong’s eyes implies how much he loved her and really afraid of losing his weak helpless girl in front of him.
“ Oppa , look at that it had stopped raining. ” Seo Jeung said while pointing towards the window where the visible sky has stopped dripping rain drop beads.
“ You want to see the rainbow ? ”
“ Yeah oppa , come with me. ” Ji Yong took the wheelchair and bolster Seo Jeung sit in the seat.
“ Come on sweet girl , we’re back to the park. We saw the rainbow. ” Ji Yong said with a smile and directs Seo Jeung’s wheelchair out into the garden. Arriving at the park , Ji Yong bolster Seo Jeung back to sit in lawn chairs. They sat together while waiting for the appearance of the rainbow.
“ Oppa , where’s the rainbow ? ” Seo Jeung asked who continued to stare at the sky with a wistful eye.
“ Just wait a minute more dear. Lean on my shoulder. ” Seo Jeung was obeyed , she leaned her head on Ji Yong’s shoulder.
“ Oppa , I wanna go on like this. Can see the rainbow with you. ” Seo Jeung said with tears.
“ Me too , I wanna be with you forever , go on like this with you. ” Ji Yong said as he gently wiped the tears rolling down Seo Jeung’s cheek.
“ I'm glad to hear that. ”
“ Seo Jeung , allow me to ask something from you ? ” Ji Yong asked who is now staring in the Seo Jeung’s eyes.
“ What would you ask ? ” Ji Yong was immediately hold Seo Jeung’s shoulder.
“ Seo Jeung~ah…can I..uhm..can I love you ? ”. hearing the words that came out of Ji Yong’s lips instantly make Seo Jeung stunned disbelief by what she heard.
“ Oppa ! what the hell are you talking about ? we are blood relatives.. why you can falling in love with me ? it’s not fair oppa
! ”
“ But..but I love you so much ! I just want you to know what I’m feeling for you. I just want to express it. ”
“ Whatever the excuse ! Still it can’t enter my senses oppa ! You must not love me , we are blood relatives ! ” Seo Jong stared at Ji Yong bitterly. Ji Yong could only heaved a deep breath , he didn’t know what to do. He seemed eager to say that they’re not blood relatives and Ji Yong right to love her. But it will hurt Seo Jeung. Ji Yong wouldn’t hurt her sister. He could only limp down after they were both together in silence.
“ Forget it.. ” finally Ji Yong broke the silence between them.
“Yea op..pa..i..will..for..get..it.. ” Seo Jeung stammered to say word for word that escaped her lips. She also leaned her head back to the Jiyong’s shoulder. At first glance she looked at the sky that was showing the beauty which unashamedly shows shades of color and beautifully circles over the sky. She smiled cause her wish had come true , and she slowly closed her eyes.
“ Seo Jeung , behold ! The rainbow has appeared at all. So beautiful ! ” Ji Yong looked straight towards the sky. But there was no response from Seo Jeung. Ji Yong turned and saw Seo Jeung close her eyes. He just patted Seo Jeung’s cheek gently but she’s not give some respones.
“ Seo Jeung , wake up. Rainbow had come to see you ! Seo Jeung.. Seo Jeung.. ” Ji Yong kept calling Seo Jeung but she couldn’t get up. Ji Yong panic and hold Seo Jeung’s shoulder and shook Seo Jeung’s body , but still no answer. Tears fell from Ji Yong’s eyes when he put his finger on Seo Jeung’s nose and felt there was no breath that blows. Ji Yong fell to the ground suddenly collapsed. He knelt on Seo Jeung who still sitting with a smile on her face.
“ Seo Jeung ! why did you leave me so soon ?! ” Ji Yong could not stem the tears from his eyes when he had to lament the departure of the girl which she loved.
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Tell me goodbye,tell me goodbye…
Dakishimeta te wo…
Tell me goodbye,tell me goodbye…
Hanasou…
Boku wo wasureru koto ni jiyuu ni naru…
Nara baby..
Tell me goodbye,tell me goodbye..
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Today is a day in Seo Jeung be rested for the last time. Everyone is seen wearing all black clothes and shows a sad look on his face. When all the procession had finished , people went home , but Ji Yong remained faithful were on the side Seo Jeung that he could no longer see her body.
Ji Yong POV
This is the end of one's life story. Yeah , finally..after all..that's sad or happy. Life is coming and there is a go. For me this is only a matter of time. When time stopped and when it is also our hearts tested. And the answer is only 1 that is confidence. Confidence in my heart where I know that Seo Jeung’s heart and soul will always be by my side. No matter with which his body was no longer beside me. There was no her laughter .. no her sad .. no her smile .. that there is only my heart that continues to keep in my heart. I feel I've done my duty in love. My love makes me do anything just to see her smile. Love is not to bring her into mine. I'm willing to pretend to love Soo Ra just to see Seo Jeung have a friends. I'm willing to bury the pain in my heart because I can’t express my love just cause I couldn’t see her tears if she knew that she only adopted children , although with told her I could love her without any limits. But my heart’s saying no and prefers love in the hearts and let her smile until the end of time in her life. And just God , angel and rainbow who kows what I’m feeling for her.
THE END
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